Feeling thankful

Let me just start by saying,

I had a great weekend.
I love my family.
I love my friends.
I'm very blessed.
I'm very thankful.

I've just had this sad feeling all weekend. I've cried more than I wanted to. My husband has been amazing. He lets me cry and comforts me. I know he doesn't understand my emotions. I don't understand them a lot of the time, but he has to put up with a lot of stuff. I'm so thankful for him. I can't imagine what he must think sometimes! (Ha!)

Bed time is always a struggle at our house and last night and tonight were no different. Ryker was crying. He was up out of his bed and back in his bed again. I get so frustrated with him but tonight I just wanted to snuggle him a little longer. I hear people say to be thankful for every moment because it will go so quickly. I feel like that is hard in some of those moments.
Tonight I could honestly say that even though Ryker was crying and whining, I was thankful that he had the ability to talk. As he was getting out of his bed, I was thankful that he had the ability to walk. It feels good to be thankful in some of those tough moments. I now know that it is possible! :)

I know that a lot of my emotion stems from losing the baby. (For those of you that don't know, I had a miscarriage a few weeks ago.) I was doing pretty well and I honestly thought, "I'm taking this better than I thought I would." I was 9 weeks pregnant when I found out that I was having a miscarriage. I was making plans in my head. I saw three car seats in the back of my van. I saw my two boys sharing a room so the new baby could have the nursery. How silly of me to think that I was done grieving. I know there are far worse things in this life that I could experience, but even though I know that, I need to allow myself time to be sad.

I appreciate all the prayers and support that have been offered to our family. I know that God has blessed us in more ways than I could have ever imagined. I know that He has a plan for us. I'm thankful for my faith and hope in Jesus. How can others get through the hard times without Him?