I am...

Let me start off by saying this: I hope A LOT of people share this post and A LOT of people read it. I am not going to respond to comments. Period. These are my feelings and personal experiences. Therefore, I will not argue with people about these things.


I am a mommy. I have two awesome little boys. They were breastfed and formula fed. Sometimes they cry themselves to sleep and sometimes the cuddle up next to me and I put them to sleep. They are VACCINATED (GASP!!). Ryker eats hot dogs and candy and chips. Heck, he has even had pop before. I even threatened to put him on a leash earlier this evening. (Let me just say, he ran away at church and we didn't know where he was.)

I am a nurse. I am educated. I am informed. I am competent. I don't appreciate being called names because I choose to vaccinate my kids. (For example, those who line up to vaccinate their children are like cows being led to slaughter. REALLY?) I don't appreciate being made to feel like I'm less of a mom because I wasn't able to exclusively breastfeed my boys.

I am exhausted. I am so tired of reading articles on Facebook. I am tired of the so called "mommy wars". I'm tired of hearing about how vaccines cause autism. If that were true, I would rather my child be autistic than stricken with polio or lying in a hospital bed dying from whooping cough. There are far worse things.

Don't you people get tired of fighting all the time? I worked in hospice for 4 years of my life. (Best job I ever had) I have watched people die. I have talked to people who knew that their time was limited. And would you believe that they never once told me that they wished they had or hadn't vaccinated their children. They never once told me that they wish their children were exclusively breastfed. They never once told me...insert crazy mom argument here...

PLEASE have your opinions and raise your children the way that is best for you. But if I see one more comment/article/status about these things and I feel the least bit judged, I might go insane. I will probably hide the post or remove you from my friend list, because I AM DONE feeling bad for the way that I parent. I AM DONE judging other people for the things they do. I AM DONE forcing myself to go back through and read comments that I know will just infuriate me. I want to be a happy mommy and I don't want to worry about what other people think.

I just heard Ryker tell me "I love you to infinity and beyond, Mommy!" And I know he does. He trusts me more than anyone in the world. I owe it to him to do what's best. And I will do what's best.

The Most Important Thing

Being a mom is scary. It is so overwhelming at times. I can handle that for the most part, but it is terrifying to think about bringing kids into the world. I didn't realize that until Ryker was born. I always knew that I wanted kids, but once I had them, I realized just how corrupt this world is. And I almost feel guilty for having kids in the first place because they have to be subjected to the nastiness of this world. Now, I would never give up my kids and I'm so thankful for them, but if I'm being honest, I'm terrified for them.

The most important thing for me is not that my kids eat their fruit and veggies. It's not that they are good at sports or that they are polite. The most important thing to me is that they know God. I want my boys to know God and His word. I want them to base their lives off of it and I want them to never doubt. I don't want them to be persuaded by the bullies of the world. I don't want them to doubt what God says because they are called judgmental or because they are called intolerant. God has an amazing life planned for both of my boys. HE knows what's best for us and that is why He has specific instructions for us.

At times I want to cry because I know the kind of persecution that faces my boys in the future.  I know the kind of persecution that I have faced and I know that it could be much worse than I have ever experienced. I pray to God that they never have to face anything like that, but I would never be more proud than I would be if they were standing on the word of God, defending it.

Knowing God is the biggest blessing that anyone could have and I pray that for my boys and for anyone reading this post.

Until next time my friends...