Discouraged

I'm not very good at keeping up with this on a regular basis. I come here when I really don't know how to keep it all in. I feel like there are so many things going through my mind that they have to come out. I don't even care if anyone reads it...it just has to go somewhere.

I woke up this morning just like usual. I think the first words that popped in my head were "God, I'm not strong enough for this." As I got ready for work, I found myself saying "God, don't I already have enough on my plate?" "I am dealing with stressors in other parts of my life. Not this, please." I'm begging him. "I don't understand." "Haven't you tested me enough?" "Haven't I cried enough tears?" Tears are streaming down my face.

Now I know there are far worse things in life than what I may be going through at this particular time. But don't you ever feel this way? As if what I'm dealing with at this moment wasn't enough, we had another situation arise today that just seems to be ongoing. I can see the stress building as I want to scream "WHY GOD?" We are dealing with enough today...not this too. In my frustration, I know that God has me in His hands. In my desperation, I know He will comfort me. In my fear, I know He will protect me.


"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9

Who am I to doubt a God who loves me? Who am I to doubt a God who allows me to cast my sin on him? Who am I to doubt a God who DIED for me? Life is hard, but how great will our reward be if we are faithful to the only one in whom we should trust. Praise the Lord for his promise.

Though the sorrow may last for the night, his joy comes in the morning.